My last good bye </3

I am finding it difficult to sleep with so many unsolved issues

Yes I left the crew - for good this time
Im a very fair person and maybe I forgive too easy

I need to point out that I did not leave just because of Bellgarath being kicked out again
I left coz of so many reasons


Me and Bellgarath have had our issues over the years and I know that we both can be stubborn and childish as well as lovely and loyal
I know that some of ye have problems with us both
But I do not find it reason enough to not let him be in the crew, seeing as he has not done anything wrong
He annoyed some people - fair enough. I annoy ppl all the time and has also been called bitch among other things from crew ppl

Some of you are keeping old grudges - its ok
even if its only half stories
I know that Bell can come off as a "perv"
as well as a lot of ppl on PP, Ive met real pervs in there
and that he was talking to someone in that way in the beginning - months ago
It also came to my attention that he was not the only one and that it was somewhat encourraged
usually it does take two to tango

It has also been said that he hassles the women of the crew
I know that Merina found it very annoying that he sent her tells when she was on smh

hello newsflash - type /mute piratename
I use that function all the time if ppl pester me

What I do not approve of is the unfairness

(got logs if this is being questioned)

Merina harasses Flash on msn to the point where he can hardly be online (this also annoys Weirdy)
Merina is still in the crew

Weirdy is annoying the hell out of Merina and my self a lot
Weirdy is still in the crew

Flash annoys most of us a lot
he is still in the crew (I know I know - hes the captain <<)

and I know that I can annoy a rock at times!!
I was still in the crew

I dont see the difference
Why is he so hated?
when we all annoy each other so damn much at times?

Its called double standard I think?

I know that I say things in the heat of the moment, I talk it over with the person and move on
But I also started to notice that I kind of got sucked in into peoples way of talking about others
I dont like that about me
its not me
I became someone Im not and I did not like the person I saw.

Even if I right now am very disapointed at some of ye, I still love ye all <3

bring out the violins thank the stars you left this just proves the type of person you are good riddance

I am not bitching or whining about what happened - I just think its so very sad that grown up people cant talk to each other rather than go behind backs.

I dont care what ppl think about me

:s I must correct something that sounded really bad about the "perv"talking
it came out worse than I meant

We all banter and flirt and to be honest - it can get out of hand coz men will always be men and take everything as an invite to keep talking
as well as we women can

And Flash - Im going to ignore ur comment since I know u have had issues with me for a long time for reasons I dont really know
and to be honest I dont care anymore
Its a game, or is supposed to be a game
and supposed to be fun

and I dont call this fun